Finally got the chance tonight to catch up on some Tumblr reading, and E’s post really got me thinking. It must be really hard to be friends with someone like me – someone who is always concerned about losing weight, someone whose diet dictates where we eat, someone who is always comparing themselves to others. I do all the things she (and others) mention – including that wishing people saw the “skinny me.” I wish that every time I see a guy check out another (skinnier) girl in the room (despite being married, we girls still want to feel appreciated! ;-)). I wish that every time I put on adorable heels and wonder if guys think I’m teetering on them. I wish that every time I put on a bathing suit. DefineDiana summed it up – “Losing weight is hard. Being fat is hard. Choose your hard.”
These are the days I remind myself why I’m doing this. I’m doing this to find me, to free me. I’m doing this to be the person I know I can be. I’m worth it. So are you.
- February 27
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